These years between "adolecence" and "adulthood"

So this season of life, some people in the christian circles call it the "college and career" group or age, some might call us the "young adult" group.  People know us as "kids" who cannot commit to anything, or who don't know what we are doing with our lives. Either way this is who we are and where we are at. 

I have come to the conclusion in my own life that this time in life has been a season of seeing and figuring out ( discovering sounds to smart for me) who I am.  Much of this confusion and ....lack of direction... has been because I have been  learning, and ( ok fine) discovering who I am.  It has been a time of discovering things in life like, brokenness, things like death.  For me it has been a time of realizing that these things are no longer a childhood joke, that life is not a video game anymore that you can "reset" yourself if you die.  Realizing that people die, and that in the face of death,  literally in the reality of death, we as humans, don't really have much say in what happens.  People die, it is inevitable, some in their time, some way before their time.  I have discovered the reality of the brokenness we live in.  How this brokenness affects everything, everything we do and strive for.  

Much of the confusion and frustration in my life in the past couple of months has been because my eyes have been opened to some of the things that are  a reality in life.  And to be honest with you it has stopped me right in my tracks because some days I just can't sort all of this stuff out.....



I donno   

Identity

So for those of you who do not know I have been unemployed for over a month now, and continue to look for a job.  The other day I was walking around town stopping at places picking up applications, and it was by all means a beautiful day.  While I was walking, in this beautiful weather, I suddenly realized that I like wasn't even able to enjoy the weather because my mind was so focused on finding a job and the fact that I don't am not working. I began to realize that I feel like I have been way to overly focused on getting a job and all that comes with that.

I began thinking about all the people out there without jobs, and was just thinking about like how easy it would be to get really depressed over not having a job, I mean just the process of looking wears you down, let lone the fact of knowing you still need to get one.  I wonder how many unemployed people there are out there who are struggling with the burden of finding a job, and because of that are struggling with serious depression.  


Why does a stupid job lead to this?....I am blown away by the thought.....How does this happen?

I mean you can totally disagree with me I don't care.  


The reason is we find Identity in our jobs. I mean you can tell me if I am wrong but there is truth to that either way.

Jobs give us status, they show that we have money, they give us money to get what we want, they show other we are capable and competent.  Jobs ( maybe without us thinking about it) say that we are achieving the American Dream.... am I right... maybe I pulling to much out of this, tell me if I am. 

We find some kind of Identity in our jobs.

Sooo these things always come back to Jesus for some reason. I have been thinking lately about the passage in Luke where Jesus tells the people.... Ill just quotes it...

Luke 9:23-24
"Then He said to them all,"If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily and follow Me. for whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it."

AKA: sacrifice the things you find Identity  

CRAP    What have I been striving to find Identity in? A job, a relationship, clothing, music style, how much money I have, what I am doing with my life? CRAP 

I mean this is where good "Bloggers" come out with a real smart conclusion and something that makes us all sit and think for a minute....     Sorry but I don't have that this morning.

Honestly I don't know what to think. I feel the pressure of Culture telling me to strive for certain things, and I also know that those things will never amount to anything.  I feel the burden of needing a job and feeling almost overwhelmed by the process.  

I am not strong enough to shake this off on my own....