..Hmmmm...
So I'm pretty sure that this week was one of the hardest weeks... mmm.. that I've had in a long time. I think it is easy to say that I hit rock bottom. To be honest with you, I told God that I was F***ing mad at Him more this week than... ever. I don't know how well you guys know me, but it is safe to say I hit rock bottom.
Going through last week really sucked, but to sit back and look back on it I can say that God made it, or let it happen for a reason. I guess my fleshly tunnel vision is still around. Maybe last week was the catalyst to put me where I am at now, I don't know. But I will be honest, I have this sense of peace right now that I can't even describe. Yea I still don't know what is going on, I don't know where God wants me, but I know it's gonna be ok .
And I'm almost gonna cry just typing that.
Thanks for all your prayers, even the ones I don't know about
... Let the Story continue, for we know it must......
Monday, April 25, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
...The Story Continues..
Sorry for not posting lately, my excuses are lame, you don't want to hear them.
Yo for some reason I really enjoy the song, For The First Time: by The Script ??
I have felt in that past couple of days that is seems I have been very focused on getting, and finding, a routine for the everyday grind of life( if that makes sense). I feel like I may have been really focused on that and I felt like that was really bad. But as I am sitting here writing this, I kinda feel that that is not true. It doesn't really seem bad it actually seems kinda normal, right? I feel alot better saying that.
But anyways.
I have really feel like I need to be helping out with my old youth group. So. I went the other night, and it was really awesome. I honestly felt like I was missing something not being around and encouraging kids, almost like I need to be doing that whether I want to or not. But it was really cool, there was one kid that totally recognized me and knew my name. I knew he looked familiar but didn't know anything about him. So we talked for a good while which was, good. I talked with my old youth pastor at the end of the night about helping out more. He told me he thought the whole "tone" of the night and of the kids was different because me and another guy my age were there......
.....yea sounds like my life...
My boss really ticks me off sometimes. You may think this is dumb, and maybe I'm only like this because I can be really anal about some stuff sometimes.. but.. So He will like tell me to do something and I will like start to do it or like um be in like the middle of doing it and he will just like tell me to do something else, or like pull me away to do something else. (kinda hard for me to explain it). But I donno this really annoys me sometimes. I don't know if it is because I like to like finish things before moving on or what. But this morning we started working and I was kinda just thinking about this whole thing and like why I get so annoyed at it. And then for this moment( you know these moments) I was kinda just like, what does God want me to get out of this annoying situation? I feel like even in this move that like I was pulled away from what I was doing and wasn't like able to finish. And I was thinking that maybe He wants me to learn to get pulled out of things I'm doing and be ok with it. Because I feel like He is gonna do that again to me. Not pulled out in a bad way either, but pulled out as in Him leading me somewhere.
oh there is more .. I'm tired though
Love you guys
Godspeed
Yo for some reason I really enjoy the song, For The First Time: by The Script ??
I have felt in that past couple of days that is seems I have been very focused on getting, and finding, a routine for the everyday grind of life( if that makes sense). I feel like I may have been really focused on that and I felt like that was really bad. But as I am sitting here writing this, I kinda feel that that is not true. It doesn't really seem bad it actually seems kinda normal, right? I feel alot better saying that.
But anyways.
I have really feel like I need to be helping out with my old youth group. So. I went the other night, and it was really awesome. I honestly felt like I was missing something not being around and encouraging kids, almost like I need to be doing that whether I want to or not. But it was really cool, there was one kid that totally recognized me and knew my name. I knew he looked familiar but didn't know anything about him. So we talked for a good while which was, good. I talked with my old youth pastor at the end of the night about helping out more. He told me he thought the whole "tone" of the night and of the kids was different because me and another guy my age were there......
.....yea sounds like my life...
My boss really ticks me off sometimes. You may think this is dumb, and maybe I'm only like this because I can be really anal about some stuff sometimes.. but.. So He will like tell me to do something and I will like start to do it or like um be in like the middle of doing it and he will just like tell me to do something else, or like pull me away to do something else. (kinda hard for me to explain it). But I donno this really annoys me sometimes. I don't know if it is because I like to like finish things before moving on or what. But this morning we started working and I was kinda just thinking about this whole thing and like why I get so annoyed at it. And then for this moment( you know these moments) I was kinda just like, what does God want me to get out of this annoying situation? I feel like even in this move that like I was pulled away from what I was doing and wasn't like able to finish. And I was thinking that maybe He wants me to learn to get pulled out of things I'm doing and be ok with it. Because I feel like He is gonna do that again to me. Not pulled out in a bad way either, but pulled out as in Him leading me somewhere.
oh there is more .. I'm tired though
Love you guys
Godspeed
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Come Away - Jesus Culture
Come away with me, Come away with me
It's never too late, it's not too late
It's not too late for you
I have a plan for you
I have a plan for you
It's gonna be wild
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be full of me
Open up your heart and let me in
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZoOfGiqZ7Y
This is kinda just a prayer that has been in my head for the past couple of days. I hope that it will encourage you as much as it has encouraged me.
Love you, Godspeed
It's never too late, it's not too late
It's not too late for you
I have a plan for you
I have a plan for you
It's gonna be wild
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be full of me
Open up your heart and let me in
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZoOfGiqZ7Y
This is kinda just a prayer that has been in my head for the past couple of days. I hope that it will encourage you as much as it has encouraged me.
Love you, Godspeed
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
A Prayer Request
I was talking with a friend who told me to live in the moment. Lately it has been really hard for me because I really want to seek out where God wants me in the future, and see what He is going to do. If you think of me in your prayers, pray for me, that I would plug in right where God wants me, and live in the moment, where He has me for the moment. For some reason this is really hard for me right now.
thanks Love you guys
Peace to you
thanks Love you guys
Peace to you
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